A Crack in the Wood & A Splash in the Sand

A couple of weeks ago, I submitted my last assignment. Just a few days ago, I sat for my final exam. The next semester? It’s all practicum. I’ll be going to SMK Seri Saujana (info, anyone?) with Hanin and Mira, but this post isn’t about practicum. Not yet. It’s not that I’m not ready to go into school for actual teaching. I’ll be lying if I say I’m not scared, because I am, but I’m not ready to let go just yet.

I may be quick to have a change of heart at certain things, but to let go of the last five years is something very hard. I know I’d still see my best buddies until the end of this semester and during practicum. Next year is still over 6 months away but I’m already thinking about separation. I know I’m not close to every one of my coursemates, but I acknowledge and applaud them for their unique personality that makes them… well, them. You can describe someone without mentions of names and we’d probably right away know whom you’re talking about. If I can sum up my coursemates in one word, I only know of one:

A W E S O M E

I probably won’t ever come across similar lot of people anymore – people with talents ranging from sewing to drawing to singing to playing multiple musical instruments to sports et cetera et cetera. It makes me a bit sad. When I return to my hometown, it’s probably going to be even harder to find people like them. Don’t try to correct me. I know this by experience. Even if you think your lot is 100 times more awesome, I can’t verify that since I don’t know them (duh!). Will there still be someone who’d listen to me when I speak or joke?

When I was in secondary school, I remember my teacher saying something like “The friends you make during the last 5-6 years of your life as students are likely to be the ones who’d stay in touch with you throughout your whole life our of pure friendship. They’re likely to be the ones you’d remember the most anyway, so cherish them always.” I seriously hope this is true.

Mira, Hanin, Khairiyyah, Nisrin, Hijrah, Lucille, Zu Lee, Rozi, Dyau, Fifi (I’m stuck calling you that, LOL, sorry!), Zaki, Fayadh, Atie and the name goes on. You guys know which ones of you lot changed bits and pieces of my previously monotonous life. You made me smile, smile, smile, laugh, cry, laugh, smile, cry, smile, and you let me feel all sorts of feelings and emotions – so much that sometimes I’m scared of how dependent I’ve become on my friends. Thank you for being my friends. Thank you for even listening to whatever I’ve crapped about.

I’ve been through changes, like the once smooth surface of wood now lavished with cracks here and there that let sunshine, wind and even rain through. Some parts, though, remain the same, but not so – just like a splash of water to the sand. Splashes after splashes, changes in texture are bound to happen, but they probably would not be so noticable, unlike those obvious cracks in the wood. Some changes made me happy, some not so. I want to leave IPBA so much because sometimes, it feels like I’m living in a military camp where some of the higher ups bark rudely and bitchy-ly most of the times. At the same time, I don’t want to leave my friends and the happy time we had.

And now I also have wonderful juniors as apartment mates and young friends, and special mention to Shap for being my cute and not so naive (anymore because there’s Mira and me , LOL) roommate. Our time of knowing each other is short, but at least I want you people to know how happy you made me feel when you acknowledged my existence.

I’m being emotional. Maybe it’s the time (4.18am). Maybe it’s just me.

And now I’ve lost the stream of words I was supposed to write down. Maybe I’ll continue later.

Ciao.

p.s/ Credit to Zaki for the photo.

In Which I’ve Been Up to No Good Again

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My Good Ol’ Photoshop in Action (Painter tab is minimised there)
Again, it’s a Reborn! fanart. What else do I draw this past few months? Lol.

I’m finally updating this blog after a long while. My inconsistency astounds even myself, and that’s pure sarcasm right there. Hur. I’ve been updating my Livejournal, Dreamwidth and some other logs, but not my main blog. What a shame. Since I’m still lazy to construct proper paragraphs, I’ll just write in bullet points.

  • Rikaichan has been pampering me way too much and now I’m lazier than ever to browse through my dictionary for unfamiliar kanji characters.
  • I just realised that I can now understand 98% of fast Japanese speech in J-Dramas/Anime without looking at the dictionary. This helps when I’m watching (more like listening to, actually) Zetsubou-sensei’s random tales dripping with pure poisonous sarcasm. Who said self-teaching doesn’t pay off, huh?
  • Japanese writing skills have improved at least 50% more now that I have a bilingual Japanese/English fanwork site to maintain. Replying to visitor comments, e-mails and webclap comments helps a lot.
  • My drawing skills are improving steadily although they still suck like there’s no tomorrow.
  • I may need to buy a new tablet before going back to Malaysia. Problem? I’m broke. Broke. BROKE!! *sobs*
  • I think my Linguist 307 assignment was CRAP. Oh well, the subject IS crap anyway.
  • I should be doing my Langtchg 302 assignment, but I’m still procrastinating
  • I’ve been reclaiming all blog posts that I can retrieve from my old domains via Wayback Machine. It’s a great, great help. I’m feeling nostalgic just looking at those old sites. Greymatter, b2, Movable Type and Newspro days! How nostalgic indeed~
  • Services offered by FC2, Ninja Tools and a few other sites ROCK!! I’ll be perusing the web for more similar awesomeness.

Before I forget:

HAPPY RAMADHAN AND HAPPY FASTING TO MYSELF AND ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS!

Now I wonder how long it’s going to take until my next update.

Housewarming, Birthday and Gossips

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The party: We held a housewarming + birthday party today, with lots of people invited and lots of food too. I can say that I had a lot of fun even though cooking and baking and cleaning up everything is a little bit of a pain in the butt. Okay, I take it back. It’s a lot of pain, but it was fun nonetheless. It’s also cute to see the people who didn’t hold back and just eat away at the food served. Hehe.

The gossip: I’ve been behind in my social life, and having no Facebook, I only got to know about the gossip of Dyau’s girlfriend two days ago. Everybody was like, “Who’s the girl?”. I know I’d be curious too if my friend suddenly has a girlfriend whom nobody knows about. In Atie’s words, “Who’s the anonymous girl?”. Dyau’s so gonna shoot me for this, but hey, I can’t help feeling like wanting to solve mysteries. The sudden ‘In A Relationship’ status is a big mystery in itself, okay? I’m feel giddy that I kind of know who she is now (see HERE and HERE). 100% sure. Now we only need Dyau to confirm this (she’s cute~).

p.s/ Will probably update with photos later. Too tired now.
p.p.s/ Educ 384. Urgh. Nuff said.

Otahuhu March Trip & More About Electives

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Love this $10 skirt bought @ a random store  @ Otahuhu

Otahuhu: Went to Otahuhu with Mira and Atie today. Mira and I bought enough chicken to last us for up to one month. We’ll probably finish it sooner than 1 month, but well… That’s for later. The three of us ate vegetarian curry with rice at a restaurant there. It’s called Kamal’s something- I can’t remember it well. The curry was awesome. The meal only cost me $5 too. Yum.

Elective:
Atie has somehow convinced me to take MATH 101 just for the heck of it. Well, it’s going to be my last elective anyway, so I’ll manage.

Electives Woes, Domestic Matters & Random Stuff

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Current mini workstation, awaitng my Aiptek 12.1″ tablet ^^

Domestic Life: The allowance came in a couple of days ago. I’ll survive until the end of June, with additional allownce of $750 my mom gave me for February through June. Bought some new shirts, tank tops and shorts to wear indoor, because I couldn’t for the life of me fnd the ld ones. I could wear the tank outside too, layered with warmer and less revealing (lol) tops of course.

Electives: I’m having a real problem with electives now. I’ve chosen EDUC 316 (Gifted Education) as one of my electives – no tutorials and no exam. That’s cool and fine. I can’t make up my mind about the other elective, though. I seriously, seriously can’t make up my mind. I want to take Linguistic stage 3, but waiting lists are always a turn off. Only two more days left. I’m literally doomed.

Tea: I’ve yet to cure mysef from my citrus green tea addiction, and now I’m developing an unhealthy addiction with assam tea – flavoured or not. By unhealthy, I was actually referring to my money. I can’t afford to go to Lim Chour ever time  want to restock. But where else can I get itfor a mere $1.10 each? GSTs are EVIL!!

Projects status: All currently on hold. Bloody lazy self.